Great Expectations

Turning 35 comes with it’s own expectations but that’s my biggest take away from the first 5 years of my 30something life, to have no expectations. Have I lost you already? Yah, most of the time I do that to myself too … I agree, it is tough being me :p

Anyway, yes, I’ve learnt the secret to me being happy 🙂 It’s to do everything from my heart and not expect anything in return. Nope, I haven’t got it right, not yet anyway but if the last 3months is anything to go by, it’s a lesson I’ve had to relearn. Unconditional love … is it even possible and is it worth striving for? I don’t know … I’m totally open to be proven wrong but in my little world, I kinda don’t know what else to do but to keep trying 🙂

Having said that, if it’s anything I’ve also learnt from the past 35 years, is that, just when you figure out the secret … life changes all the rules and you realise it’s a different game.  A conversation with my parents a couple of weeks ago, revealed that in their 50s, they are still trying to figure it out and that’s why my parents inspire me.  They make it look fun and exciting … trust me, they are honest about the pain and suffering that comes with the curve balls that life tends to throw at you too.  Despite all that, how my parents live their lives make me want to try and make the most of mine … keeps me grateful 🙂

So when someone said to me that the 30s are the new 20s … I don’t know … I’m inclined to think the 30s are just the new 30s … the game keeps changing … or does it?  Whatever it is, all I know to do is to keep trying my best.  I may fall every now and then, it’s about picking myself up and taking the next step and the next and the next 🙂

Here’s to being able to sleep soundly … at the end of the day, I’m just a girl who loves to snuggle into her bed, close her eyes and dream.

Nige and Linli, Happy Birthday!!!